Isaac Hayes died yesterday. My train also died, but I got to see that rainbow there, so who's ahead?
My back has been hurting me for days. Has my life become so bad that my subconcious has to tell me through muscle pain? I am surprised that more method actors don't use blogs as a way of capturing anothers personality. Can't afford to see a doctor, though even with my insurance. I haven't been able to show up on time for work in weeks. Exercise does not seem to help, so I stopped. The power and mystery is failing me. I just found a bike path that leads to my work and it is very close to my house, I am not a huge biker but I might try it. Perhaps it will raise my spirits, something I have also avoided recently.
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I like this bar. It's lively, and spacious. Miss my daughter, though. I am a broken shell of a man because of her.
I am about to be laid off. Mainly because I suck, and I hate my job (and they announced company wide layoffs). I crashed my car in a nicotine induced confusion, I haven't yet paid my taxes, I owe 15000 in cc bills, and I just opened a new cc because I can't cover $900 in bills this month. Life doesn't get much worse. I used to be an alright guy, happy go-lucky, now my back hurts all the time, I have a lame job that I have to cling to, and I can't cover my bills. I shouldn't even be out drinking tonight, but I am so fucked I don't even care. I wish I made $500 more per month so I could afford to put my daughter in the good school. Life is short and life is shit and soon it will be over. Watch home movies on adult swim. And the misadventures of jackie woodman.
Beer 4.
You know why america is fucked? The corporation. The corporation is like the hood on a klan member. It allows assholes to ahow their true colors under the guise of shareholder interest. Take my CO: they should be pushing money into a rebranding and reorginizing and cross-training their staff. But they are going to downsize, which will scare the shareholders into selling (at least it should scare them; look into .CO histories on layoffs if you don't believe me (which you should'nt, most people are wrong)). Idiots. They have a slew (that's a full sluice box) of options that would rake in the dough, but they won't because they are a chickenshit CO. Spend how much on adverts (an unproven system) and how much on lobbyists (they fuck us from the other side) and keep cutting staff. Retards. Always watch peoples feet; their direction will tell you what they are paying attention to. It's karaoke night at this dive... I just noticed the bartender. She looks like a contestant for grad students gone wild. Does anyone rickroll the karaoke? pass to the left, sail to the right. I dance like usher. Thoughts become abortive. This song is dedicated to the qccomic.com stupid angry girl just set me off. So bitter and backlashy... I feel sad for her life. Hope she can overcome it before she spits out some kids.
I saw your mama wearin' a rug
spendin' all of her quarters
cold playin' dig dug.
If the US decides to hold the chauffer as a threat then they are fools. What a PR nightmare.
Pictures for sad children is the comic of the month. Find it and enjoy.
lucia cifarelli is a pompous cunt, and being in kmfdm is not enough to redeem her.
glitter mini 9 is hawt music for summer.
Well that's 16 days shot to hell. What an idiot I am. I set myself up to fail everytime withe the self-sabotage, and the anger. There are times where I want to say fack it to everything. It's all so lame. Hard to be a role-model when you hate your role. Where does the pain end? Not to sound like some emo douche, but srsly, this life bites. Everything offers the illusion of security and comfort, but the cost is too great TOO GREAT. Would that I could, I would be homeless again. Yes again. The bartender doesn't see me, why won't she look? Am I not the sadness you're looking for? Lost in this dream, I wonder if all the worlds a stage; how can I get a walk on part in my life? We're in the doldrums (should be a link to bigod 20 here)
Sadness. I have always been of the philosphy that-----my dad just called to tell me that my stepmom is in the hospital for seizures resulting from bad meds (polio). Good day.....
So thanks to my job I am double booked for 9am today: training and taking care of a horrible court date. I have been charged with trespassing on a sidewalk. I am pleading no contest to get it over with as quick as possible. No clue on when the judge will show. This sucks. With any luck I will only be half an hour late, but I am guessing longer. Lazy magistrate prolly doesn't even start untill 9. Apparantly we need to wait untill everyone is counseled. I hope this starts soon. Installed the homebrew aP on my wii over the weekend, pretty cool. I need to finish up on my pc now, get linux up and running again. I am about $300 away from paying my bills this month. Not sure how to handle that.
